Wednesday, March 26, 2014

The match and moving day!

Most all you know now that Justin had the match last week! Almost 4 years of medical school and we are finally at the end. It's crazy, I remember starting this blog when Caleb was 6 months old. I was filled with worry about our future and how we would do this. Going into a time in our life with no income from Justin and very, very little from me. We have been extremely lucky with amazing friends and people in our life to help us through this. We are beyond thankful to god for always providing. The moment we didn't know how to pay a bill, or get through a hard time, god provided. HE is faithful, and the biggest thing I have learned through this journey is to continue to try and let go of my worry and let god take it. I've grown up a lot through this, another baby, and now a third on the way. Life has been good to us. God has heard our prayers.

We are about to start the next step in this medical journey and a new phase in our lives. Justin matched in family medicine at KU medical center! We couldn't be happier to remain here and go with where that takes us. There are 9 residents at KU and Justin officially starts orientation the middle of June. He finishes all of his medical school course work this Friday. In between then and now he will help teach a medical students step 1 prep class at KU and help get our family moved in about a week.

We moved into a pretty small duplex the year Justin started school 2010. He have remained here because it's close to the medical school and it's been a good fit for this time. However, now we have the chance to get a home that will fit the needs of 3 little people! haha. We found a wonderful house in South Olathe. A little drive for Justin to KU hospital, but if you live in KC you notice there's a lot of driving around the city anyway. We decided we would sacrifice that for a larger home, in a great neighborhood, with kids outside playing, a little pool, a nice peaceful area. There are 4 bedrooms and 3.5 baths. A beautiful deck and yard. At this point in my life with little ones I feel I live in the kitchen our outside playing with the kids when the weather nice. It's a gift to be able to stay home with our kids. I love it so dearly. We will still be extremely tight on finances, but hey, who isn't these days :) In 3 more years we will finally be able to buy a home, and start the road to loan repayment! hahaha. What a great life!

For now, the kids are doing well, helping me pack every day. Baby boy is growing in my tummy and starting to kick a lot. I think I might have another active boy on my hands, ha.

Thank you friends a million times for your thoughts, prayers, help, and love during the past few years. It can be done. You can chose to follow what makes you happy, a different career path, even later in life :)

I'll keep you updated after the MOVE!

The very beginning of Medical chool 2010!!

2014 match!


The house we are moving into next week

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Becoming Grateful

So I haven't been able to stop thinking about this article I read. I posted it on facebook, but here it is too -  The one things Christians should stop saying  The article about Christians that should stop saying "I'm blessed." WOW, It has really made me think a lot about blessings and the way we word things, and the habits we get into without thinking about it. I mean really thinking about what we are saying. It just rolls off our tongues because that has come to be the way many of us express how lucky we are. Our family is so blessed to have this or that. Well, why shouldn't we give glory to god for everything. We should. Timothy 6:17  Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment.

God did put things on this earth, provided things and people, and beauty for us to enjoy.

I often had thought to myself. Why Do I say I am so blessed to have, this, that or the other? Does that mean people who don't have these things aren't blessed. Or the people who have more are blessed more by god.  I got this raise, new house, or car, we have all this stuff, etc, etc. We are so blessed. That is so how I was thinking.

After researching more in the bible, and talking to my pastor. I feel like a better word would be grateful. Really my pastors idea or thoughts after reading the article himself (also mentioned at the end of the article)
, but makes total sense. It seems the word blessed could be of the spirit, and you can see that directly in Mathew 5: 1-12

1 Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to Him,
2 And He began to teach them, saying:
3 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they will be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful, for they shall be shown mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.
12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

In my mind I was giving glory to god for everything in my life. I do believe he gives and takes away. I am truly blessed by god if I can be thankful, gracious and loving in the good and bad. In having things and not having anything. That is a blessing in my soul.

I am also beyond grateful for all god has given me. For everything, For love, life, breath, eyes that see, nourishment, and yes even the material things that we enjoy, the ease of our life. No this isn't a promise from god. No not everyone has the same life style or "things" as we seem to deem important in our culture. Can you be grateful to god for these things without being selfish and worshiping them.
I think so. I think we can give glory and gratitude, in all things in life god gives. Most of all the blessing to our spirit. To see through his eyes. To listen when he is speaking to us. I pray he continues to speak to my soul and help me to question these things. Helps me to talk to others about it, and seek the answers through his word.

I wanted to share this in case anyone else was having the sames thoughts, or concerns over an article that sparked attention by so many Christian's. I think it's good for us to look deeper into the spiritual habits we take on. Open our hearts when god is speaking to us through other believers. Thanks for reading.


Sunday, February 16, 2014

There's this boy I LOVE

There's this boy I love, and tomorrow he turns 4. My heart is melting. That deep feeling of holding back tears because my first baby, our very first miracle is growing way too fast. My eyes swell up as I write this tonight from all the emotions you could have with a child that you adore. He is my amazing, special, miracle from god. Had we not lost our first baby, Caleb wouldn't exist. I never thought this parenting thing would be filled with so many emotions. I never thought I was capable of loving like this. Understanding love, the way god intended. It's awesome, and our son is awesome.

This little guy came into our lives 4 years ago. He has tested me. Worn me out. Filled me with joy. Taught me, is teaching me constantly how to love, how to be better, how to be a mother to a boy. I was so worried when we first had Caleb I wouldn't know how to give him all he needed, as a boy I mean. I didn't have any brothers and really had no idea what young boys were like. Although I had always dreamed I would have a little boy who was wild, loved dinosaurs, played in the mud, climbed everything. WOW, did I ever get that dream, hah.

He is teaching me. A mother of a boy. A wild boy. We have to let things roll off our shoulders. We have to be wild somethings too. Wrestle, and cover them in mud as we search for worms in the rain. We have to look at them in wonder when they do something we would have no way of understanding, unless we ourselves had a male boys mind. We have to shake our heads when they run around naked, shaking their booties. Let them run, jump, tumble and rumble. They NEED it. They need to be boys, and be allowed to be.

At one point early on, I thought I had to try so hard to shape him into this perfectly well mannered boy so everyone wouldn't see how crazy and wild he was. It exhausted me. I felt like I was crushing his little boy spirit by expecting that he should and could sit quietly and play with toys on the floor for hours. Well, kind of like his sister did. Nice, sweet, gentle with the toys. Now don't get me wrong. We work on and are constantly learning and working on manners. Boys can be boys without being rude and obnoxious. Well, most the time :) But really, I am learning how to foster and allow my sweet amazing boy to be who he is and still shape his behavior into a well rounded child. That's the hope of most parents I imagine.

However, hopefully without the expense of crushing his or my spirit. I let him (and Corinne) do things my parents would have never allowed. We throw all the pillow cushions off the couches and jump into fake mud puddles. We paint with our hands and toes in the kitchen all over the floor (washable paint!). We build huge forts all over the house and spend hours playing bear hunt. We get dirty, run, play and scream outside. I LOVE it. I love every minute of watching Caleb grow into the 4 year old he is tomorrow.

HE is filled with love. So unbelievably sweet. He is crazy creative and looks at the world in a constant learning mode. He brings life to the room. Makes me laugh. Drives me crazy (mainly because we are so much alike). I can not imagine this life without him. God blessed us ten fold with our children. He made this little guy special. Justin and I adore him. With each passing day and year I hope we take it all in. The good and the hard. I don't want to miss a blink of this beautiful life. Or this beautiful child. Thank you god for Caleb, this boy I love.


Saturday, February 15, 2014

SAHM with the Legris's

Full time stay at home mom. That's what I have become since January. I still work at my church as the director, but that job is a blast and I love those people, so it hardly feels like work. So what do I do all day? What does a mother at home DO all day?

Well, a lot depends on the day, but we stick to a pretty good schedule. I am loving being at home with the kids and I get to spend a lot of quality time with them. Before I know it they will both be in school and I will be asking myself; What do I do all day now?? HA

Caleb is in preschool so 2 days a week we get up, get ready for school, eat, play, and go to school. Corinne and I either kill time during his school or come home and clean. After we do lunch and quiet time, nap for Corinne. The days we don't go to school alternate between play dates, story times or stay at home play. I try and get some cleaning done in the morning, but I'm lucky if I get one room done between the food, water, diaper, and HELP request from the monsters. I might get to pee by myself in the bathroom for like a minute, but that is rare, shower is the night before or if Justin is home in the morning.

After quiet time we will do free play, art time, some other fun activity or when the weather is nice spend as much time outside as possible. About 5pm I try to get some kind of healthy diner started and deal with the witching hour of children. You know this if you are a parent, but if not it's kind of like the time of day they turn into crazy little monsters filled with all naughty inclinations. Really, the fits start, the I'm hungry, the running around chasing of sister taking all her toys, the climbing on and of the walls. It's pretty special. Justin usually gets home around this time. I have to laugh, because he walks in the door to a screaming fit or the kids in break in their rooms and I have no idea what he is thinking. Probably of along the lines of what an amazing wife and mother I am to put up with this all day!! :) Or, maybe, our children are little monsters and what have done wrong.... Either way, after dinner everyone clams a little for bath, teeth, books, and bed.

Doesn't sound too hard when you put it out in a schedule like that, ha ha. Then there comes the unexpected during the day. Potty messes from potty training. Potty training in general. Laundry, grocery shopping, budgeting, house cleaning, organizing, cleaning out kids clothes, toys, etc. Oh, and the ups and downs of kiddos. Good days, fitty days, life. It's awesome and tiring. Filled with memories I will hold for a lifetime, and filled with days that I can't wait for it to be bedtime.

This is who I am, and what is most important to me. What I am suppose to be doing right now, and I will pour my whole heart into my family. Don't worry, I take time for me. I have girl nights and trips to hobby lobby for sanity. But being home right now, while my kids are little is what is bring me joy. It is different for every family, and every woman or man. There's no laid out plan as to the way it should be. You work out what is right for you and your family as a whole. Who knows what the future will bring as our kiddos get older. I've stopped trying to guess, or plan. Instead I am just going along for the ride, and so far, it is a fantastic one! Sometimes I stop and wonder how I ever got to lucky to have an amazing husband, beautiful children and a life filled with blessings.

ps. 4 Weeks we find out if baby is a boy or girl!!!! :), 5 weeks till Justin's Match DAY!!

Our days

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

The good mother myth....and the mommy wars

I mentioned at some point during one of my last blogs this new book I was reading called the good mother myth. Great book so far. It goes right along with what I am seeing as a current movement in social media and apparently in written works as well. I've seen blogs about it, a photography work with several different kinds of moms in it. Actually, I don't think the "mommy wars" are not new at all, I just think the talk in our generation has spiked lately.

What in the world are the mommy wars? Well, if you're a mother, recent or veteran, at some point I am sure you have encountered this, or even been a part of it. The judging, the all knowing. The "this is the way you should raise a child" thought, or the judging of a SAHM, verses a WM. Should you nurse or breastfeed? Public or private school? Co-sleep or crib train? The list goes on and on. It's really just down right annoying!

I mean I guess if you really think back, I mean way back, when did you first start comparing yourself, or judging others? Middle school, Elementary? Women, girls, it particularly bad at it, and why? What's the point? Did we learn this from someone, or does it just naturally happen? I guess some of that can be answered in the examples we saw as kids, good or bad. But you would hope that adult, grown women would start acting with grace and confidence.

The whole thing makes sense. I've felt it myself, dealt with it. Hell, I've even done it. Judged. Looked at other moms and thought - good gracious her kids are a nightmare. Wow, she's really letting them eat that? Well, I just don't let my kids watch that much TV! Then I turn around and they are having red dyed lollipops and watching their 5th episode of Team Umizomi. Who am I to judge? Why did I? And a better question yet, how do I become of woman of encouragement, non judgemental, and full of grace?

I actually was worse at the judging thing myself before I was even a mother! WOW, sometimes I could look at my younger self and just want to slap her! haha

In the beginning, with your first new baby, you look to other mothers for advice. Reassurance that what is happening is normal, what you are doing is right. I was constantly asking myself if I was doing a good job. All I could do was look to other moms who were doing it, or had done it to see if I was catching on to this mother thing. At some point though, your confidence builds and you start thinking, this is what I'm going to do with my kids. This is what works for us. This could be where the major judging comes in, but it doesn't have to.

That's kind of where I am right now. I'm feeling pretty darn confident about how we have chosen to raise our kids. (well for the time being right, as they grow, new challenges will come into play) As far as the basics for their age, I'm feeling good. Pretty good diets, routine, faith based, share of responsibilities between mom and dad, basically the big things Justin and I have agreed on and are feeling more confident as a parents, although I am sure that will change just as quickly as it comes on. Good, Great for me that I have it ALL Figured out, hahah! Now comes the supportive part for my other mother friends.
NONE of us will do things exactly alike. That's what makes us great mothers, and makes us perfect for the child or children god gave us. Working mom, stay at home mom, both mothers love their children! Spinach and lentils for dinner, or chicken nuggets and fries; you're child will survive and learn to love or hate certain foods. Naps, no naps, TV, no TV. Formula, Nursing. Shots, no shots. TOO many toys, not enough toys. blah, blah blah. We as mothers will all gain very strong opinions about these things. Why? Because that is our job right now. Trying to do the best for our children because we love them. 

What we don't have to do, is judge, attack, talk about, or scrutinize other mothers. We just don't have to. It has no point, no purpose, and usually only makes you feel good about your self.

What I am trying my hardest at is encouraging. Stopping myself the instant I start to think a judging thought about another mother, or woman for that matter. Feeling confident and happy at where I am. Asking advice when I need it. Hoping when I talk to other moms they are loving and caring for me in acceptance. Trying myself to be a friend. A real friend to other moms who seek advice. Or don't ask for it. To be there for other women who need other women. Because ladies, we don't have to fight each other. We can love each other, like god loves us. I hope he fills my heart with this kind, non judgemental love. I hope others will see the light of god in me. I hope our generation can start to make these mommy wars go away. Or at the least shed some light on the ridiculous behavior that doesn't have to be. WE are women now. Grown, out of high school, and raising the next generation. Maybe we can lessen the judgements women face. :)

Some interesting reads -

Monday, January 27, 2014

The man of the hour...

Every year I come to this blog excited at the chance to once again brag on the most amazing man I know. Today January 28th, 2014, the birthday boy, turns 33. WOW! 9 years now we have blown out candles on this day and said blessings to another year of life. How am I so lucky to have met Justin 9 years ago, close to this time, quickly fallen in love, and started what would be a lifetime of birthdays together. And much, much more.

He is my best friend in the world. He makes me laugh. We share a bond like I have never had before. An understanding that we are a team, forever, thick and thin, better or worse, richer or poorer, in sickness and in health. We are a forever kind of deal. I don't think it gets any better than that. So for every year that this day rolls around, I will eternally feel blessed and grateful that he was born, that we are a family. For this year I give;

33 Thanks to the birthday boy 

 1. Thank you for being loyal 
2. Thank you for making me laugh when my grumpy face won't end
3. Thank you for our beautiful children
4. Thank you for putting your wife and children #1 in your life
5. Thank you for working harder than any person I know, for us
6. Thank you for telling me you love me every day
7. Thank you for calling me each day, just to check in
8. Thank you for rushing home and always helping me right away with life 
9. Thank you for tucking me in a night
10. Thank you for reading the kids books every night because you love it
11. Thank you for marrying me, with no doubts
12. Thank you for considering and asking my feelings in any decision
13. Thank you for loving my family as much as your own
14. Thank you for singing with me
15. Thank you for praying for me and the family
16. Thank you for supporting all the wild adventures and hobbies I take on
17. Thank you for being a man of integrity 
18. Thank you for being a man who loves God
19. Thank you for being Amazingly handsome, and sweeping me off my feet for 9 years
20. Thank you for running errands for me even when you are dirt tired
21. Thanks for moving to Kansas for this girl
22. Thank you for following your dreams, and taking us with you
23. Thank you for your honesty
24. Thank you for always finding a way to give to us
25. Thank you for allowing me to be who I am, and follow my desires in life
26. Thank you for forgiving
27. Thank you for being a budget Nazi and keeping us always on track
28. Thanks for giving me more than I ever hoped for in this life
29. Thanks for watching bachelor reality shows with me and secretly liking them
30. Thanks for making me a better person
31. Thanks for waking up at night with the kids, and letting me sleep
32. Thanks for being humble
33. Thank you for being you, in every way. You are my perfect LOVE